You may be able to rationalize or justify a situation to yourself but if you are sensitive to your feelings, knowledge, rationalization and justification will not change you or your feelings. If your lifestyle is leading to abuse of your physical body it does not matter whether you can justify the damage you are doing or not.
Surely it is too understand what you are doing whether it is comfortable or not to do so.
Do not run away from what you are doing or deny what you are doing. Face the facts and live with what is.
